Activism Or Acceptance.
I think it was my midlife crisis. Zingeving (finding meaning) and transformation. Some become a biker. I tried to save the world. I've had obsessions my whole life. I was obsessed with dogs, fish, birds, dioramas, cars, banks, collapse... but my insight remains quite shallow. I am swept up by whatever I'm exposed to. I've also have been compulsivly posting ideas since I've had access to the internet in the late 90ties. If I manage to quit one site, I end up posting on another. Arguing is intoxicating. Even about politically neutral subjects. I think I remember, turning 40 in 2022, I consciously decided to find motivation and meaning in saving the world. The internet is pushing my buttons. And I am pushing buttons on the internet. Humans have always tried to control each other. If it's not religion, it's ideology. We fight over our stories as if we are tribes fighting over hunting grounds. The same patterns keep emerging. The Others are evil, false and stupid. Ou...